Kid Cudi has written an emotional open letter to fans about checked into rehab for “depression and suicidal urges”.
The 32-year-old hip hop star is moving into a facility after admitting he is a “damaged human” who struggles to leave the house on a daily basis.
He wrote a lengthly post on his Facebook page this week, in which he also revealed he doesn’t trust anyone because of his anxiety.
The star said: “Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share with you because I feel ashamed.
“Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.
“Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges. I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I would’ve done something to myself.
“I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax.
“My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it.
“I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to
have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too.
He continued in the post: “I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this. (sic)”
Despite entering rehab, Cudi – whose real name is Scott Mescudi – has “promised” fans his next album, Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin, which was pushed back last week due to some “minor sample clearance” issues, is still “on the way”.
He also plans to be out in time to play at Long Beach festival Complexcon, which he is due to co-headline on November 5 and 6.
The star added added: “I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases.
“The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.
“If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.
“Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn.
“I feel like s**t, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry. I love you, Scott Mescudi (sic)”